The Cross

I once was told that we must all bear our crosses...being raised catholic, and I came to understand that we must continue to carry our sins(or bear the wrath of God), for we cannot escape them during our lifetime. What folly to believe that the cross is something we must bear, a symbol of despair instead of hope. The cross is something that does not need to be a burden on our backs, Christ has already bore the Cross for us we need not bear it ourselves. Oh how I cringe when I hear the saying we all have our crosses to bear...for I know I need not carry my cross, my sins are forgiven, carried by my savior Jesus Christ. Thank You Lord!

Matthew 11(28-30)28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Square Peg in a round hole...

Where do I fit... I find my self wondering.
I seem to be stuck between two worlds, stuck one foot in this earthly realm and the other in the spiritual realm.

I am at a loss for words at what I am feeling right now...

I seem to be able to connect with people of both worlds, but yet I am apart from both, how does that work? It's as if I am like a pendulum swinging back and forth, sometimes on this side and sometimes on that side. There is never a constant. I want to have two hands doing the same thing, working for God, but I can't seem to let go of this world. I am seeking for place that I wholly fit. In the meantime time, I continue to try force myself into that round hole to only end up scuffed and bruised and not any further along. How can I meld this world and that of our spiritual Father together? I still find myself hesitant to jump in wholly into one or the other worlds for fear of losing myself completely in the wrong direction. I just can't seem to get settled.

Where to next Lord, I am here waiting, seeking asking for guidance, for strength and courage to know where I fit. I can't give up, I find that to live for this world would be so easy but something inside will not let me give up. I have HOPE, I may falter by I still believe in you Lord, Jesus I love and I want to be in your presence, please teach me and guide me to your ways. Please give me something to hold on to. What's next I know I don't belong in this world, but I feel like I don't quite belong in yours. What are these feelings that I am feeling? Give me the wisdom to know that I am seeking your will and not my own.

I want to know you LORD! Help me to quiet my mind and my heart so that I may feel your presence! Why do I always feel like I need attention! I want someone to reach out to me to show me the way, to help guide me on your path. Please help...